BOO!

WOW!

I have been gone for almost three months and let me just say that I missed EVERY single one of you so so so so very much!

I have felt so incomplete in my whole entire life!

I always knew that j-land really helped me pull through on my tough days and that there was some really awesome people here ....

but it really REALLY hit me while not having the internet to talk to you all and write and read entries in j-land!

I really realized that I NEED j-land and can not live again without it for so long!

I really realized how much more great you all are ....

I had so many that were still sending me cards and writing me letters!

I needed that! Really I did!

The past few months has been rough for me ....

Yes it is absolutely WONDERFUL to be living all by my self .....

but there were some other problems I have encountered!

Well I really did not come here to rant and rave on my first entry back.

I wanted to let everyone that I have not been in contact with that I am still alive and I still love every single one of you! :)

 

Well I want to go wonder around and see what I may have missed while I was gone so maybe I'll writre an entry later about what has been going on in my CRAZY CRAZY life!

 

LOVE YA!

Important Entry!

I just wanted to let everyone that I will be leaving J-land for a little bit!

 

I have some inportant stuff to take care of .... for more info. visit my private journal if you are a reader!

 

I will really miss everyone!

 

Thanks for all your love and support and I hope to be back soon!

Where To Start?

Well I have been down on and off the past days ....

Like wednesday I was fine ALL day ... then around 9pm I ran to my room and just started crying ...

LITERALLY out of NOWHERE!

I kind of took it out on Mark, texted him and told himI was sorry, but that just made him even more mad at me!

I am sick of being depressed ....

I just want to smile and laugh daily .....

 

ok I need to change what I am typing before I start crying and getting depressed MORE than I already am!

 

I got Letoya Luckett's new cd before work yesterday ...

yea yea yea, I know ...

NO ONE knows who she is ...

Okay let me start by saying,

she was from the ORIGINAL Destiny's Child group ....

Her most recent song is Torn ...

Watch the video here!

She has an amazing voice ...

whether Mark agrees with me or not ...

he says that her video sucks and he does not like her ...

OH WELL Cuz I do!

 

So of course I bought her cd, I needed to show my support, and when i bought the cd I got a free t-shirt! :)

I always pick the right cds to buy ...

the last cd I bought was LL Cool J and I got a free poster!

 

Anyways I really have nothing else to say!

My life has been JUST THAT boring!

(Hot and boring may I add)

YIKES!

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Is what is on my screen above the box where I am writing this! WEIRD?

My computer has been acting REALLY REALLY funny the past 2 days!

I have got to find out what is going on .... I hope I do not have a virus! :(

I have been getting POP-UPS like crazy ... when i am not even on ANY websites ....

I leave to go to my room to watch tv and come back maybe a 1/2 hour later and I have almost 40 pop-ups ...

I don't know what to do!

I can't get anything done on the computer because of it! :(

Any suggestions? Please HELP!

Anyways,

on another note ....

Does anyone know how to get pictures from your cell phone onto your computer ...

i tried e-mailing them to myself but it will not send!

I have 2 pictures of mark on there I want to share with all of you ....

and I have 2 pictures of my friend Sarah that was here visiting last week!

Anyone that can help me with my picture problem or pop-up problem, I'd really appreciate it!

 

Thanks!

Do You Know Me?

So do you think you know me?

Really?

Well let's test those skills of yours ....

take my little test ...

MY TEST!

Let the testing begin! :)

Feeling Better Finally!

Well I am felling better today!

I slept almost 12 hours last night because I was so exhausted from this week!

It was one thing after another .....

first I got sick Wednesday night, woke up still sick Thursday and my assistant called and wanted to call off and I told her I was there working sick too and unfortunately she needed to come in because no one else was able to cover her shift ....

I told her I would stay later for her and her had to be in by 5:30, she was to come in at 1:30 and I was to leave at 1:30 ...

So I ended up working 51.75 hours, and that's 10 days straight with no day off (not until tomorrow), one of those shifts was a open to close, inventory for Lisa & Tammy's store was also thrown in there ...

I am so exhausted it's not even funny!

My check will be screaming how much it loves me though! :)

And that is why I tried not to complain while working this week!

I mean I was sick near the end of the week yet still came to work!

Thursday my friend drove 5 and 1/2 hours to visit me .....

it should have only taken her 3 and 1/2 hours, but something got messed up!

Well she got here around 9:00pm Thursday night, Lisa, the kids, and I met her at starlite diner and had dinner ....

I told them after eating that night that I felt like I was going to throw up ....

Lisa was like, "Not again!"

Well I tried my best to keep it down ...

Lisa and the kids went home, Sarah ad I went to Mark's house so she could meet him and go over to his friend's house with him!

Well while Mark was getting dressed while we waited outside, I threw up ....

made Sarah PROMISE not to tell Mark I threw up ... first of all it was embarrassing and second he would start about how I needed to go to the doctors because my stomach always hurts, and I just wanted to have a good time and NO LECTURES!

So we went to his friends house, stayed until 12:30am ... went back to starlite diner so we could all talk ....

we didn't eat either! LOL!

We stayed there until 2:30am ....

went back to Mark's house for about an hour then Sarah and I came home ....

I made her spend the night because I did not want her driving home in the dark and possibly getting lost!

We didn't go to sleep until almost 5am and I got up at 7:45am ....

I left her sleep until 8:10am ...

then we left the house to go find directions because my Internet was down ....

She ended up making it home in about 3 hours yesterday!

I was still not feeling well yesterday morning ....

and I had not eaten anything since I threw up my dinner from the night before, so I didn't have anything in my system left to throw up so I had the dry heaves!

And dry heaves hurts more than throwing up!

Well Lisa and I went for lunch in the food court, and I feel so much better since then ....

Now I am just worried ...

Mark was to call me last night when he left his friends house ....

which he told me at 9:35pm that he was soon leaving ....

NEVER called!

I text him an hour ago and asked him, "Is everything ok ..... you never called me last night like you were supposed to"

And I still have not heard anything back!

I sure hope everything is ok!

 

****edited: I just called Mark and he said that he never called last night because he ended up staying out and he never got my text this morning .... so everything is fine!

 

Oh And I just wanted to say, NO it is NO WAY possible that there may be a little one inside this tummy .... not unless it is another virgin Mary story :) And I don't think that is happening, so NO, NO baby!

Now THIS Is Why I Skip Meals

Well I know why I skip meals now .....

After work Lisa and I went to pick up her kids and then go to wal-mart ....

(I went to set up a layaway for things that I will need for my apartment)

when I came outside I told her the heat was making me feel like I was going to throw up ....

she was like, "It's not even as hot as it was earlier!"

I told her I know that, but it was still hot and this is how I get in the summer!

Well we decided to go to Taco Bell for dinner ...

I tried to eat ...

most of my food tasted funny though ...

but I tried eating ....

I said to Lisa, "I can't eat anymore or I am going to throw up!"

Lisa just looked at me and said "uh-oH!"

She could see that I was not holding it in very well ...

I sat there for about another 2 mins. looking pathetic

and ran right off to the bathroom ...

I threw everything that I had just eaten up!

I threw up so much that I was spitting up blood too!

So I cleaned up and came out with my eyes watering like crazy!

I felt SO embarrased!

I NEVER threw up in public and I just felt like everyone there heard me and was disgusted by my actions!

SO now I must go lay down and get plenty of rest, I have to work tomorrow morning! :(

I hope I feel better!

Too Damn Hot To Think!

It reached 104 degrees here in PA today ...

I don't know if that was even the highest ...

I just know that at 3:15pm I called to see what the temp was and when it said 104,

I thought damn am I happy now to be working a double,

cuz now at least I am in the a.c. at the mall all day long!

I sure hope it does not get too bad tomorrow!

I will cry for sure! :(

I hope everyone is trying to stay cool ...

tell me what are your temperatures?

 

HOT! And I Mean HOT!

I feel like I am dying from this heat here in PA ...

when I left work I called to see what the temperature was and it was 101!

Yea that's hot but it feels like it is 110!

I walked out the mall doors when I got off around 3pm and I thought I was going to fall the hell over!

There is NO way I am sitting in my room today!

Too damn hot!

I hope everyone is staying inside staying cool!

Survey Time!

Past - Present - Future

 

Name five things from your past that you have experienced or accomplished, five things you are happy with presently and five goals or dreams for your future.

 

 

Here's my answers...

 

Past

 

1. Graduated High school

2. became great friends with Lisa and her kids!

3. Lived in Flordia for nine months 

4. Was an assistant manager at K B Toys in Flordia

5. Wonder into J-land!

 

Present

 

1. Being a Store Manager at Piercing Pagoda

2. Making my store one of the most successful stores, I am trying to make it a higher volume too!

3. Talking to some guy, who after a lot of disagreements, have become VERY close to!

4. Have Lisa and her kids to love andsupport me daily

5. Have wonderful people as my friends from here in J-land

 

Future

 

1. Vacation in Hawaii

2. Meet Barbara, Linda, Amanda, Nae, Emily, Kendra, Sam, Melissa, Shelly, Angela, and a few others from here in j-land

3. Get my driver's license & get a car

4. Go back to school

5. Move out of my parents house .... which btw will be in about 2 months (This gives me time to start looking and keep saving at the same time)

 

 

Answer in your own journal but be sure to leave a link here in the comments. Come on, play along! For me? Pleeease! :-)

A Few Random Pictures

Here is my baby Cookie .... as soon as I lay my towels on the bed every morning, he jumps up and lays on them, then he wants kisses and MUCH love from his momma! :) Is he not the cutest little thing EVER? I could not imagine my life without my cat! He is my rock!

Here is another picture of my baby sleeping on my towels!

 

This is from last month ... as you can see .... Dontae was asked to take a test to move up a belt .... Lisa and I were SO nervous that day ..... but look on to see if he passed or not!

Here Dontae is getting ready to take a hit on a piece of board to see if he can break it with his fist! Let's see what happens!

Here is a picture of one of the Karate Instructors ..... not his, but from the same school .... he is showing off his board that he broke with his hand ..... NO PRACTICE AT ALL ON THIS AND he broke it on his FIRST TRY! He was so happy, as was Lisa and I!

Just another picture of Dontae and his board! :) My strong little man!

Here is Dontae getting his new belt level .... he is now a high white belt .... they test to move up every 3 months!

Here is Snowball, the other night I went to go upstairs and at the top of the steps I find this .... snowball laying inside the basket as it was turned onto it's side!

Here is another picture of him sleeping in the basket!

Here is Mr. Pee Pee laying his head nicely on a cat toy like it is a pillow meant just for him! If you look closely at his eye on the left you can see it is sore, some of the cats keep fighting him like something ridiculous lately!

Here is a picture of a rose that was given to me .... I toke the picture the day after I got it .... we had a Rose show at the mall and the one little girl from the mall (Her parents own a nail salon by my store) gave this to me ... she gave Tonia, my assistant, and all the girls at 5~7~9 a rose! She is such a cute little girl .... right now she is at Houston, Texas on vacation!

IT'S HERE! IT'S HERE!

I don't remember if I told you all this yet ...

but last week I came home and was all depressed again about my break out problems ...

turned on the t.v. and

BAM!

There was a proactiv commercial on ....

I broke down ...

I couldn't take it anymore ...

and I have heard AMAZING stories about Proactiv ...

so i called and ordered it!

WELL, as my day seemed to be at it's peak of happiness!

It reached an all time high!

I walk in the door, look to my left, do I have any mail?

OH, HELL YEA!

I got my bank statement

AND

MY PROACTIV!

It's heaven on earth for me today!

My day has just been WONDERFUL!

I feel great about my friendships that I have repaired!

I had an AMAZING transaction at work today!

I left all giddy from that!

Get home to find hopefully what will be my solution for my break out problems sitting here waiting for me!

WHAT A FABULOUS DAY! :)

God really really Loves me today!

(not that he never does, he just showed his love in over drive today)

What an amazing life high I am on right now! :)

I must go wash my face now with my new stuff ...

I shall keep you all updated on how it helps!

Smokey

Here are a few pictures of my baby Smokey before he started getting sick and hiding from everybody all the time!

 

 

Smokey (The all gray cat in the back) and Cuddles cuddling up! They were like BEST FREINDS!

 

 

Smokey all tuckered out after we played for a while!

 

 

Smokey LOVED to curl up underneath my arms and purr and got to sleep like so for HOURS!

 

 

See! I told ya! :)

 

 

Here he is wearing one of my necklaces ... he just wanted to play with it and he got mad when I put it around his neck!

 

Happy Fourth Of July!

HAPPY FOURTH OF JULY!

What a great day of history today is!

It stands for this wonderful thing that we call freedom ...

something we all take for granted every now and then!

But we also are aware of how this became for us and the people that made it possible and keep it possible for us!

What a great country we live in and I am VERY happy to say (okay, okay to type not say)!

UNITED WE STAND!

Don't forget to thank our soldiers!

Stop over to my girl Emily's journal .... her husband of two years (7/3) is one of those fine soldiers that fight for us!

Thank you everyone for the beautiful e-mails, tributes in your journals, comments in my journal, etc. all in favor of this amazing holiday ....

I really appreciate it! :)

A Beautiful Tribute!

My girl over at Confessions Of An Angel Waitress ...... barbara ...

This lady is such an amazing person ...

she is always so caring and giving ....

she made a beautiful video for the fourth of July ... and I just HAD to share it with all of you! :)

What kind of person would I be if I did not?

HORRIBLE I tell ya, just horrible!

I hope all of you enjoy it as much as I did!

Barbara's Tribute Video

 

And one more thing ...

you you don't not already read her journal, you need to NOW!

She is a great person ... and don't forget about her activity journal too ..... which can be found HERE!

Tell her I sent ya! :)

*edited: For the video that she has made ... the link I provided will not work for some reason that way .... but this is how I got it up .... copy and apste this into your address bar :

http://mastersblynn.neptune.com/?selectedalbum-mastersblynn-256996

Letting Go!

Letting go is always one of the hardest things in life ...

whether it be of a friend that you are no longer close with or it be a death of a family member or friend, or a death of an animal ....

It's a hard thing ...

but it's a part of what we call life!

 

Well my parents had taken Smokey and put him into a little pet carrier and kept food and water and such in there with him  ....

that way if whatever was wrong with him was contagious, he would not spread to the other cats ....

they kept the carrier in their bedroom ....

this is so hard for me to write .....

as the tears fall and I try to write this through the blur of the falling tears,

I try to find the positive ... yet I don't seek it .....

I know that every single one of Gods intentions are good and he makes EVERYTHING happen for a reason!

My dad has gotten rid of Smokey ...

where exactly he has taken him is unclear to me at this point ....

I know the last time one of our cats got sick and was like on his last breath my dad took him "to the farm" (I'm guessing it's the woods)

So I am guessing that is where he took Smokey ...

My dad and brother just walked in and there is no SMOKEY!

My baby is gone!

 

It will take me some time to be used to him being gone ....

he was my baby!

I will always LOVE you and Miss you severely Smokey!

My poor baby!

one of our cats is sick ...

very sick ....

his fur is separating from his skin and it is BRIGHT red ....

he has been losing weight for the past month or so now .....

he looks really bad ...

his eyes look all sunken in .....

there is a sore above his right eye ...

and he cries sometimes from the pain ....

he will only eat or drink if you put it in a dish and hold it up to his mouth for him ....

my dad said he thinks he has cancer ....

he might be dying slowly ...

and I love him so much ...

I don't want him to go ...

he is about 8 years old!

My poor baby smokey!

 

I Miss Ya Girl!

The past few weeks I have really thinking about my friend Alicia that passed away last July ....

I miss the girl SOOOO much ....

July 22 it will have been 1 whole year that she has been gone from the living .....

I need her here so much that it is not even funny!

I have been so emotional the past few weeks thinking about how much I know she would love to see me trying a relationship with a guy ....

and as much as Mark and I may argue, I know he is a really great guy ...

and I know Alicia would just adore him .....

and I know they would get along so well, I wish she was here to talk to me about things

and so that we could laugh and carry on again ....

I wish I could have helped her more with the problems she was having ....

I still blame myself for what happened to her .....

if I would have been a better friend and been visiting her more than maybe this would have NEVER happened!

I just hope that Alicia has forgiven me for being such a bad friend to her the past few months she was alive!

She was an amazing woman ....

she always put her problems to the side to help everyone with theirs ....

which I think may have been part of her problem, never dealing with her problems just made things build up .....

until it was unbearable and then she just exploded and left this world!

I just wish she would have opened herself up more to us to help her deal with her problems ...

she never wanted to talk about them ......

ALICIA JOY STRAUSS, I love you girl and I always will, remember that you are always in my thoughts and there is forever a place in my heart just for you! Nobody can EVER steal that away from you! I wish you were here right now so I could give you a huge hug and just talk to each other and cry and reminisce about the past we had together! I will never forget your beautiful smile and laughter ... I will never forget all the things that you have done for me! You hold a special place in everyone's heart that you ever met and came to know on a personal level ..... and I know that Miah misses you, when we talk on the phone he will not talk to me about you ... he says it's too hard for him! I understand ..... Julie is the only one that will talk to me about your passing! We miss you more than we could possibly miss anything!

 

I love you girl and will always miss you!

Sour Mood

I am in such a sour mood that it is not even funny .....

I need to get out of this rut soon too because I got paid today and I am NOT trying to spend that money as I know I would normally!

I really need to save so I can get my own place!

And today i just realized I am not going to get to use the rest of my vacation time this year because of being short staffed ...

and I have 45 hours and 45 mins left .... I am flaming PISSED!

Our fiscal year runs 8/1-7/31 .....

therefore we have to have all vacation time in by the end of the 2nd week of July!

IMPOSSIBLE with the situation at my store!

I am frustrated to no ends about this ... I worked hard and deserve this time and I can not even enjoy it ....

I will now lose this time .... because my company is greedy and will not roll it over!

WHATEVER!

 

Next thing that is bothering me ......

I compromise for Mark left and right ......

but when does he EVER compromise for me?

NEVER!

That's when ....

and when did I take notice of this ......

great question to ask .....

Last night after I wrote my entry!

I had thought about it all last night and this morning and thought ....

'it has always been what he wants or we don't do it .... or I am a WHINY baby .... or he says other things about me .... when is it his turn to do something I like but he does not?'

And what a funny time for all of this to happen too .....

this past Sunday was the playoffs for his football thingy .....

Every Sunday he has a football game from 8-9am ...

and he REALLY wanted me to go to the playoffs, but I did put my foot down there and say no because it was my one day off for that week and then I had to work 9 days straight and that I just wanted to relax .....

of course he got mad ...

but he also got over it ....

well my boss' husband (the owner of one of the food places in the mall I work at, and one of the players on Mark's football team) had started the past two days on why i was not at the playoffs on Sunday and that I BETTER be at the game this Sunday ....

I need to support my man ..... which Lisa was there the one time he started and she stated "she don't have a man, Mark is not her man, they are just friends so she does not need to be there to support him!'

I love Lisa so much ... she reads my mind so well, it scares me!

well he kept saying to me all day today whenever he saw me ..... "8 o'clock Sunday Theresa .... 8 o'clock .... you better be there .... I'll be looking for you!"

"well I am NOT going to be there .... I'm not coming ..... I compromise for him in plenty of other ways and he has yet to compromise for me ... I went to the first game after we started talking and that's enough for me until he can do the same for me!"

Lisa's smart behind says "Yeah that was when she was still excited about him...."

"I still am excited about him, but I am tired of having to do things I don't like for him and he can not do the same for me ..... it's not fair!"

Ed stood there in shock that I just busted that all out there .... and then said "8 o'clock Sunday, you better be there to support my boy Marcus!"

"well as I keep saying ..... I AM NOT COMING!"

 

I think I am in such a sour mood because of the weather and of working so much ....

I am just exhausted from life in general ......

what am I going to do ..........

I don't want to be stressed or depressed anymore .....

I HATE both of those feelings, I really do!

No Sleeping here!

My dad calls me at work tonight around 8:30ish to tell me that someone tried climbing in my window while I was at work ....

how freaky is that ...

I am now scared shitless to go to sleep ....

I HAVE to open the window because I am on the third floor and it is hotter than a mother up there ....

now I have to close my window EVERYDAY (mind you it's summer) when I leave and but a board on the window ....

now my room will be like 1,000 degrees when I get home from work ....

I am so pissed off and scared  .....

what if the person tries to come in while I am sleeping?

Sometimes I am a heavy sleeper and sometimes I sleep lightly ....

what if they try to come in one night while I am sleeping heavy?

I am so scared!

 

Anyhoo .......

I had a GREAT day at work today ......

I did however have to work open to close (9:30am-9:30pm)

so my feet are swollen and I am exhausted

We had our goal in by 3:30pm ....

piercings and $ AND I had GREAT coupon percentages!

My boss was so glad to hear my numbers at 4:30pm (we have to call numbers in EVERYDAY at 4:30pm)

WE closed at 170% to plan, 100 and something to comp (last years sales) 250% to piercing plan and piercing comp, and was at 83.33%to coupon upsells (meaning 5 out of 6 coupons that were redeemed today I got them to spend an additional $25 to get ANOTHER coupon)

I am so proud of myself! :)

I have a girl that I can hire ....

but there is another girl that I want to interview first ....

I called the other girl for an interview but she never called me back (I had to leave a message)

So soon I will be back to 40 hours and 2 days off .....

YEAH for relaxation .....   :)

boo that I will have to give up the GREAT paychecks! :(

 

Well I have to work tomorrow morning so I better get some sleep ...

I will be reading journals either tomorrow after work or thursday after work ....

Hopefully Mark and I are doing something tomorrow when I get off of work! :)

Pimping out my Girl

My girl Barb has created a new journal ....

please go visit her at her new place .....

it has all kinds of cool things for parents to do with their children ....

if she does not see that people are reading she will close ....

and I don't want that to happen, she has some really good ideas there!

So please keep her new place going and stop by and see her!

here is the link:

New Journal Lies Here

Thanks for your love and support!

It means a lot ot her and I! :)

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY!

I am so sorry that I am late about this ........

My journal celebrated it's ONE YEAR anniversary while my internet was down ....

I had a beautiful little entry ready to go for when it came ....

and then

POOF

my internet was broke!

So I am sorry MLH!

Mommy owes you a better .... even better .... one next year!

Here I Am!

Well I am so glad to be back here in j-land

AND to have all my 187 journal alerts DONE!

Yep it did not even take me all day ....

as I thought it would ...

I statred took a 2 hour break came back for a few hours then left again for about another hour then was here for another 2 hours and I was done reading!

I am proud of myself ...

I was a little worried that I may not catch up and that I would be behind throughout the next week ...

I had off today but starting tomorrow I have another long week ...

I have to work 9 days straight without having another day off ...

i am so exhausted here lately and have not been wanting to do anything!

Mark even called me lazy yesterday ....

I know he was kidding but I was serious ...

I know I have been lazy lately ....

I am 21 and yet i act like I'm 70!

I am pathetic!

I need to be able to work 45 hour weeks and have one day off each scheduled week and be okay ...

but I can't!

and it's not even like I work in a hot sweaty factory or anything ....

not saying that I got a job in an office building that has a.c. and I can sit on my ass ....

because I work in the mall .... where they keep the heat on all summer long ..... and we are not allowed tosit down!

And there is always something to do ....

I really just wish I could be like most people my age ...

please do not think I am complaining because I am not .....

I love my job VERY VERY much!

Speaking of loving my job .....

I got to GIVE my first interview yesterday ...

my boss was there with me ...

but I was nervous as all get out ....

and my regional (her pic is on my sidebar ... Angela) gave me a diamond ring for watching the region for that week she was on vacation ....

and a wallflower thing from Bath & Body Works!

I will have to take a picture of the ring and post it later this week ...

I have to get batteries for my digital camera .......

It is absolutley beautiful!

 

Well I gotta run ...

Lisa, the kids, and I are going to Maggie Moos Ice Cream ...

It's 100 degrees here .... and feels like 115!

Cleaning!

After I got home from all my running around this morning

I did manage to get some stuff done

I got my laundry done

and I got my bathroom cleaned!

However my internet is acting stupid,

so I did not get around to anyone's journals!

I was trying to figure out to post an entry from an instant message

then that way I could post an entry from my cell phone

but I couldn't figure it out!

Oh well ....

my internet is working for now!

I hope it last long enough for my to catch up on my journal alerts!

 

Have a great evening and great friday!

HOT! HOT! HOT!

It reached 100 degrees her today ....

I literally felt like my body was melting ....

I had sweat POURING off of me!

My makeup (okay so I didn't do my makeup today) but my foundation ran off right after I put it on!

I HATE doing my makeup in the summer!

I can not stand the feeling of everything coming off my face like that ...

like I'm a crayon melting!

UGGGGGGGGGGGGGH!

I can not stand to eat either when it is hot!

Hopefully I won't get myself to the point where I will get sick ....

I drink LOADS of liquids (naturally) though,

so that is a good thing!

 

Anyhoo,

I am neglecting this journal now that I have my private ...

not good, not good!

So I will try harder to keep up with this one!

I will use this one though for mainly surveys and little entries like so ....

nothing personal about my life will be in here anymore, unless it's not a huge thing that I don't mind sharing with the WHOLE WORLD!

 

I think it is time for me to go now .....

I need to go strip and get into more comfortable clothes (like next to NOTHING) and lay in front of my fan!

 

Hey, did I say how it is HOT as a Mother outside?

Well in case I did not ....

IT'S HOT! (90 degrees at 8:25pm, pure craziness)

Survey Continued Part 5!

Are you 

300 happy: Yes

301 sad: a tiny bit 

302 religious: A little 

303 bitchy: Fuck yeah 

304 crazy: That too

305 messy: Neat Freak 

306 mad: kinda 

307 slacker: Yes 

308 nerd: A little 

309 bookworm: HELL YEA 

310 jock: No 

311 preppy: No 

312 selfish: I try not to be 

313 giving: very 

314 obsessive: compulsive 

315 violent: Nah

316 calm: Most of the time 

317 peaceful: For the most part

318 mellow: -eh

319 eccentric: Cha 

320 caring: Yes

321 untrustworthy: No 

322 loyal: Yes! 

323 patriotic: A lot. 

324 perverted: no 

325 colorful: Yeah

326 artistic: no

Miscellaneous

327 what color is your jacket: Black

328 do you shave: Yes. 

329 where: Practically everywhere. 

330 what color is your razor: Hot pink and silver. 

331 what size is your bed: twin, for now 

332 what color crayon would you be: Lavendar 

333 what are the last four digits of you phone number: 7474

334feelings on abortion: KILLER 

335 how longdoes it take you to shower:10 mins.

336 what does your screenname mean: I LOVE butterflies 

337 thoughts on blonde pop stars in general: Eck 

338 who so you trust the most: Lisa 

339 is cussing a necessity in life: Fuck yeah. 

340 how about coffee: Fuck no ... unless it's a gloria jeans chiller 

341 is the world screwed: yep 

342 what something you cant live without: Computer 

343 what time did you fall asleep: 12:15 am 

344 know what 69 means: Yes, I am not stupid. 

345 how about 143: Oh, no, what’s that? 

346 can you live without a microwave: no

347 what do think about death: Sucks 

348 do you want to drop out of school: No, I GRADUATED! 

349 why is the sky blue: because the grass is green

350 what is a good trait about yourself: I have a HUGE heart 

351 what do you always think about: Life in general 

352 how do you react to change: Not well 

353 do you talk to yourself: All the time. 

354 what is your opinion on love: it stinks 

355 can you afford to lose weight: tons of it 

356 what color would you dye your hair: darker

357 best thing anyone’s told you: Mark told me the other day I was beautiful

358 what is your reaction to someone telling you you're hot: Are you crazy? 

359 does being psycho appeal to you: Um, no. 

360 if you wrote a book, what would it be about: everything 

361 what would you change your name to: I wouldn’t 

362 time finished: 7:59 pm

Survey Continued part 3!

Do you believe in

178 heaven: Sure 

179 hell: Sure 

180 angels: Yes 

181 devil: -Eh-

182 god: Yes 

183 buddha: No 

184 aliens: Never know.

185 ghosts: Yeah

186 spirit (soul): Yes

187 soul mates: Yes 

188 reincarnation: Maybe

189 love at first sight: Yes

190 karma: YES!!

191 love in general: Yes 

192 luck: Yep, and mine is BAD

193 yourself: Hardly ever 

Crush

194 who and when was your first crush: Troy in 1st grade

195 any now: Yes 

196 a celebrity crush: ummmm ..... 

197 who do you want to be with right now: what you all don't know yet? 

198 whos number do you want: I already got it. 

199 who do you want to kiss: Do you really need to ask this either?

200 what is something you dont understand about the opposite sex: Shit, everything.

201 if you could go on a date with anybody, who would it be: gee, who do you think?

202 on scale of one to ten, how romantic are you: 6 

203 first thing noticed about the opposite sex: Teeth

204 what do you look for personality-wise: Fun ... I don't want no one that is going to be boring

205 biggest turn on: Smile

206 biggest turn off: Smoking 

207 something they wear that turns you on: A man in jeans . . . mmm mmm mmm

208 something they wear that turns you off: Pants showing their damn boxers

209 the most romantic thing you want to happen to you: Getting purposed to 

210 the most romantic thing that has happened to you: on my birthday I got roses from my first b/f on my 15 b-day

211 what do you wear on a coffee date: never been on one 

212 is it right to flirt if you're taken: It’s okay ... just NO touchy

213 is cyber cheating: Yes 

214 are eyes the passage way to the soul: Maybe 

215 who would you like to take to the prom: Prom? I'm a little too old for that 

216 do you want to hug somebody right now: Yes 

217 do you know what an aphrodisiac is: Yes 

Describe

218 mellow: ehh 

219 melancholy: eh 

220 theperfect date: Something out of the usual 

221 the perfect mate: Someone sweet

222 how m&m's are made: Shoot I don’t know. 

223 why manhole covers are round: Cuz they are.