Reading Journals

So I just wanted to let everyone know that I have not been to journals lately cuz it's been crazy here ....

my brother was here for almost a week for easter ...

and I was trying to spend time with him!

Life has been just crazy for me!

I will try to get back into the swing of things this week!

I have off today but Kori gets back from vacation in flordia today and we want to spend time together!

Then I get my house phone turned on this wednesday!

I am so excited ..

things seem to finally be going good for me!

I have the bestest friends any girl could ask for! :)

Nickey, Jessie and Lisa ...

You girls ROCK!

and you ARE my rock!!!!!!!!

 

Private Journal!

I just wanted to let you know that I accidentally screwed up my list of readers on my private journal ....

so if you want added again just e-mail me (butterflies4me04@aim.com) and I'll put you back on!

I am really sorry ...

I don't know what I was doing and I can't remember who all was added!

Other Journal!

I don't know if because I was gone for so long if some of you may have lost the link to my other journal ....

so I just wanted to remind all of you about it ...

Here is the linky:

http://journals.aol.com/butterflies4me04/TheStrugglesOfADepressedMind/

It is a private journal so if you are not already added, e-mail me!

Alot of you are already added!

I just wanted to remind you all because that is where I normally write ... this journal is just for non-important things ...

like my senseless ranting and raving that I don't mind the whole world reading! :)

AOHELL Alerts!

I have not gotten any of my alerts since I stopped writing in here back in august!

I guess the inactivity of my account made it all weird and now it won't work!

I tried reactivating my alerts and I still don't receive the alerts!

I've tried doing an address change and that didn't work!

I am BEYOND frustrated!

BOO!

WOW!

I have been gone for almost three months and let me just say that I missed EVERY single one of you so so so so very much!

I have felt so incomplete in my whole entire life!

I always knew that j-land really helped me pull through on my tough days and that there was some really awesome people here ....

but it really REALLY hit me while not having the internet to talk to you all and write and read entries in j-land!

I really realized that I NEED j-land and can not live again without it for so long!

I really realized how much more great you all are ....

I had so many that were still sending me cards and writing me letters!

I needed that! Really I did!

The past few months has been rough for me ....

Yes it is absolutely WONDERFUL to be living all by my self .....

but there were some other problems I have encountered!

Well I really did not come here to rant and rave on my first entry back.

I wanted to let everyone that I have not been in contact with that I am still alive and I still love every single one of you! :)

 

Well I want to go wonder around and see what I may have missed while I was gone so maybe I'll writre an entry later about what has been going on in my CRAZY CRAZY life!

 

LOVE YA!

Important Entry!

I just wanted to let everyone that I will be leaving J-land for a little bit!

 

I have some inportant stuff to take care of .... for more info. visit my private journal if you are a reader!

 

I will really miss everyone!

 

Thanks for all your love and support and I hope to be back soon!

Where To Start?

Well I have been down on and off the past days ....

Like wednesday I was fine ALL day ... then around 9pm I ran to my room and just started crying ...

LITERALLY out of NOWHERE!

I kind of took it out on Mark, texted him and told himI was sorry, but that just made him even more mad at me!

I am sick of being depressed ....

I just want to smile and laugh daily .....

 

ok I need to change what I am typing before I start crying and getting depressed MORE than I already am!

 

I got Letoya Luckett's new cd before work yesterday ...

yea yea yea, I know ...

NO ONE knows who she is ...

Okay let me start by saying,

she was from the ORIGINAL Destiny's Child group ....

Her most recent song is Torn ...

Watch the video here!

She has an amazing voice ...

whether Mark agrees with me or not ...

he says that her video sucks and he does not like her ...

OH WELL Cuz I do!

 

So of course I bought her cd, I needed to show my support, and when i bought the cd I got a free t-shirt! :)

I always pick the right cds to buy ...

the last cd I bought was LL Cool J and I got a free poster!

 

Anyways I really have nothing else to say!

My life has been JUST THAT boring!

(Hot and boring may I add)