Thursday, June 22, 2006

Sour Mood

I am in such a sour mood that it is not even funny .....

I need to get out of this rut soon too because I got paid today and I am NOT trying to spend that money as I know I would normally!

I really need to save so I can get my own place!

And today i just realized I am not going to get to use the rest of my vacation time this year because of being short staffed ...

and I have 45 hours and 45 mins left .... I am flaming PISSED!

Our fiscal year runs 8/1-7/31 .....

therefore we have to have all vacation time in by the end of the 2nd week of July!

IMPOSSIBLE with the situation at my store!

I am frustrated to no ends about this ... I worked hard and deserve this time and I can not even enjoy it ....

I will now lose this time .... because my company is greedy and will not roll it over!

WHATEVER!

 

Next thing that is bothering me ......

I compromise for Mark left and right ......

but when does he EVER compromise for me?

NEVER!

That's when ....

and when did I take notice of this ......

great question to ask .....

Last night after I wrote my entry!

I had thought about it all last night and this morning and thought ....

'it has always been what he wants or we don't do it .... or I am a WHINY baby .... or he says other things about me .... when is it his turn to do something I like but he does not?'

And what a funny time for all of this to happen too .....

this past Sunday was the playoffs for his football thingy .....

Every Sunday he has a football game from 8-9am ...

and he REALLY wanted me to go to the playoffs, but I did put my foot down there and say no because it was my one day off for that week and then I had to work 9 days straight and that I just wanted to relax .....

of course he got mad ...

but he also got over it ....

well my boss' husband (the owner of one of the food places in the mall I work at, and one of the players on Mark's football team) had started the past two days on why i was not at the playoffs on Sunday and that I BETTER be at the game this Sunday ....

I need to support my man ..... which Lisa was there the one time he started and she stated "she don't have a man, Mark is not her man, they are just friends so she does not need to be there to support him!'

I love Lisa so much ... she reads my mind so well, it scares me!

well he kept saying to me all day today whenever he saw me ..... "8 o'clock Sunday Theresa .... 8 o'clock .... you better be there .... I'll be looking for you!"

"well I am NOT going to be there .... I'm not coming ..... I compromise for him in plenty of other ways and he has yet to compromise for me ... I went to the first game after we started talking and that's enough for me until he can do the same for me!"

Lisa's smart behind says "Yeah that was when she was still excited about him...."

"I still am excited about him, but I am tired of having to do things I don't like for him and he can not do the same for me ..... it's not fair!"

Ed stood there in shock that I just busted that all out there .... and then said "8 o'clock Sunday, you better be there to support my boy Marcus!"

"well as I keep saying ..... I AM NOT COMING!"

 

I think I am in such a sour mood because of the weather and of working so much ....

I am just exhausted from life in general ......

what am I going to do ..........

I don't want to be stressed or depressed anymore .....

I HATE both of those feelings, I really do!

9 comments:

misscarberry said...

I'm sorry you have to put up with all of that. I used to get it of my exes parents cause their son was like a basketball star. It must be so hard trying not to spend your money, how much do you need to save?
Love Sam xXx

eml625 said...

Man can really suck at times .
DONT GO SUNDAY !!!!!  You have the right to stay home and you deserve it!!!

hugs,
Ellen

hugsdoodlewacky said...

Hi,I am sorry you have to go through all of this.I hope things will work out for you soon.You will be in my prayers.You need to take time out for you.God bless you!!!

tristannmbr2 said...

Oh my Girl!  Sounds like you just need RELAXATION!  Tell your "MAN' that he needs to be there for you went you are feeling this way, and that you don't need the extra stress that he and his friends bring on.  Who cares if you don't want to be at an hour game?  You will be there in spirit!  lol  Tell him you can dream you are at his game rooting him on, while you are getting much needed sleep-in time!  Hope you feel better!  Big hugs, Vicky

xxroxymamaxx said...

I'm sorry your in a rut Theresa.  I can relate.  But I have always felt like a relationship should be 50/50, so until Mark starts to realize that...it probably won't work.  I do hope you get to feeling better and I'm sorry about your vacation getting messed up.  Maybe they will let you take a day or two?  Hugs and GBU, Shelly

trickeytricky said...

Gurl - - - it sounds like you need a nap! I am serious, I'd say, f--- you all I need a nap, I am getting grumpy and I am taking my vacation time weather all ya'll like it or not. Mwahahah. I know, easier said than done. But you did earn that time . . . geeesh, I am sorry darlin'.

Either way . . . have a good weekend, or atleast try to, k? k.

Amanda :)
http://journals.aol.com/trickeytricky/CountryMyKindaLivin

z7snowflake said...

sorry your feeling so bad and that Mark still wont compromise for you. I hope u feel better soon

linnpooh said...

I'm sorry you are going through all of this and I hope you can decide what you want to do about things and work it all out. You can't keep living with stress and you have to find a way to be happy. Life is too short Theresa, and as the Great Eleanor Roosevelt once said "Nobody can make you feel inferior without your consent". I like to take that word "inferior" and substuite every negative emotion I feel whether it is angry, unloved, less than, left out, left behind, taken advantage of, used, taked for granted, stupid, jealous, etc, etc, etc. We control our own happiness & well being and as soon as we really understand that....our lives will change. I'll be praying for you and as always......on your side and routing for you. Don't ever settle for less than you deserve.

Pooh Hugs,
Linda~

bhbner2him said...

Poor, tired, overworked baby.  I hate places that won't let Vacation carry over.  Be sure to check, as they should have to pay you in $$ if you don't take the time.  May help you get closer to that place of your own.  -  BArbara