Well today was an odd day for me!
As any of you that have been reading my journal for the 2+ years I have been here today marked a very tragic day for me today!
Today marked a 2 year anniversary that still lurks in my mind and haunts me daily!
2 years ago today my friend Alicia Joy Strauss had passed away!
I miss that woman more than I can really express lately!
I wish she were here to help me with a few situations I am going through.
I know that sounds greedy, and she is helping me more than I probably care to admit!
She was a great friend and sometimes I had been so ungrateful to that!
I had not realized just how good she was to me!
Oh yea I knew she was a good person and a great friend, but I didn't realize how much more she meant to me then I cared to admit until everyday after her life was taken I grew to love her more and more even though she was already gone!
I still talk to her often and tell her how much I love her and miss her!
I was a good friend to her but I definitely could have been a whole lot better too!
I had a LOT of regrets when she passed and I still hold some of those regrets!
I could've been a better friend and maybe she would still be here ...
although I know when it is your time to go God will take you no matter what!
But it is so hard for me to say goodbye sometimes!
I am so sorry Alicia, I love you and miss you so incredibly much!
However, some of you know I had a date today as well ...
It was great!
A real gentleman!
Something I am not quite used to!
I can't really think of any reasons to not like him ...
however today was one of those days where you think about what is right and wrong and what feels like should and should not be!
And I just don't feel like I am ready to pursue any type of relationship right now!
I have WAY too much going on right now in my life!
I mean look I can't even keep up with journals anymore ... SORRY!
I had to delete alerts from all of you for the past week now ... the alerts were just adding up more and more and there was no way I could read them all!
I might be turning my alerts off for a while ... I have some things I need to get focused on and take care of!
I need to start acting more like an adult sometimes!
I promise I will try to get everything figured out soon and be back to reading your alerts soon!
Please forgive me!