Saturday, December 31, 2005

New Years Eve? Really?

So today is new year's eve!

Well I had to work 10:30am - 6:30 pm and now I am sitting here being bored out my MIND!

I have NO MONEY and no friends to really do anything with!

So my plans are to sit here and do absolutely NOTHING!

Maybe I'll just play The Sims 2!

That's always fun!


Anyways, have a great new year's eve everyone!


Don't have too much fun without me :)

Thursday, December 29, 2005

Answer to a few comments!

I know I need to be in more touch with my journal .... I have abandoned it a lot here lately! I have not been visiting anyone either! I never answer anyone's questions in my comments .... so I promise I will change that ... as much as I possibly can, considering I do not get my alerts for comments anymore so I have to go through the last 5 entries everyday! So I will start by the comments from yesterday's entry!      


Holy cow....I think I counted seven cats and two dogs?? Whoa....glad I don't have to pay your vet bills!! LOLOL! They are all so precious, though, and how lucky they are to have people take them in and care for them the way you have. That's a cute pic of Hunter, how does he feel having such a beautiful sister? :)

Pooh Hugs,
Comment from
linnpooh - 12/29/05 6:30 PM  

Yes that is right Linda 7 cats and 2 dogs ... I know it's a lot .... some people think that I will end up being one of those old ladies with 100 cats and dodging the health inspector .... I KNOW that I will never be that bad! I would not be able to do it ... no offense to anyone! I will limit myself to one dog and 2 cats .... nothing more! But my parents tend to be suckers for animals in trouble! Hunter does love me, he tells me all the time, like tonight when I came home from the movies he came over to me and gave me a kiss on the cheek and said, "I love you Theresa!" But he does to call me fat and ugly a lot!    

cool pics, u have cute animals
Comment from
z7snowflake - 12/29/05 4:47 PM  

Thank you

I love animals myself.  I thought I had a lot with two dogs and a cat!  WOW!!  I'd love to have more, but my husband will kill me.  LOL.  Take care,
Comment from
chat2missie - 12/29/05 11:29 AM  

They are a handful ... they love to pick fights with each other ... mainly the cats ... they have territory issues! Chocolate hates fighting, but Tabby will growl at him and start a fight with him just because he wants to eat too!

wow you guys have a LOT of animals!!!  so cute!
<3, emily
Comment from
therealslimemmy - 12/29/05 7:17 AM  

A LOT is definitely right! But at times it's almost like having kids! (not that I really know what that is like)

I love your pictures and you have cool pets.  The brother looks nice too.  LOL you told him you couldn't take off his first picture.  Liar liar pants on fire LOL Barbara
Comment from
mastersblynn - 12/28/05 10:34 PM

HEY now ... he does NOT need to know that I can take it off .... as long as I don't tell promise NONE of you will tell .... he he he :)~ Let's keep it our little secret! I have a even more embarrassing picture and I black mailed him .... I told him if he did anything to really make me mad I would post it! He has been begging me to delete it off my computer, I use photobucket, and I told him once I download it off my camera onto the computer, it's PERMANENT!  

Wednesday, December 28, 2005

More Pictures!

This is our Chocolate Lab, Chocolate .... I know how original .... I used to call him Chocolatte!

My Dad would get so MAD!

I had to bribe him to sit pretty with a treat dangling above my camera!

I snapped the picture right before he jumped up on me to get the treat!

We got chocolate from our neighbors 2 doors over (my dad grew up with their son, which lives 5 doors up ... and I grew up with their daughter and went out with one of their sons ... UGHHHH ... the past)! His mother was put to sleep a few years ago and his mother still lives 2 doors over!

This is our cat Midnight a.k.a. Baby Girl!

I gave her that nickname when I moved home from Florida last spring because she was the baby out of all the cats and she was so tiny .... and still is!

She would NOT sit still (or lay) so I could take a picture!

Here is the story on how we got Baby Girl:

My dad was driving along the highway and saw this KITTEN running along the shoulder!

He pulled over and brought her home! ..... my dad is a sucker animals in trouble!

This is my brother Hunter again!

right after I posted the last entry I showed him the picture and told him he was right, I DO have a "ONLINE JOURNAL" .... he knew I did, but I kept telling him that I didn't because I was scared that he would find a way into it and read it!

Not that I lie or anything but this is my "getaway" from my family!

My spot to vent about my life!

So he saw the picture and got mad and said, "come on! Take a better picture!"

I told him that once the picture was posted to that I could not remove it! he he :)

This is our cat Smokey!

He is the oldest!

He was born an outside cat and my mom wanted him so one day when mom was at work my dad crawled under our porch at our old house just to get him and my dad got stuck!

He eventually got out .... with Smokey!

This is Snowball a.k.a. Baby!

He was given the nickname the same day he received his name!

My mom and dad would call him baby and my brother and I would call him snowball!

He spends a lot of time with me!

He is very lovable too!

We also got snowball from our neighbors (that we got Chocolate from)

This is our cat Sunshine!

She was thrown out of a car window and hit a friend of my dad's school van windshield!

She was nearly DEAD ... some of her insides were hanging out! GROSS, I know ... sorry!

My dad brought her home and took care of her!

She will not come to any of us and my parents have had her for about 2 years!

She is scared of everyone .... can you blame her?

How could someone be so cruel?

The cats used to always start fights with her this past summer .... they eventually got sick of me yelling at them and gave up ... they would wake me up about 4 times every night!

This is our Jack Russell Tabby!

My dad likes to call her Lynn sometimes .... I have no idea why!

Maybe because he is weird!

Having Fun With My NEW Digital Camera

That is a REALLY good picture of me laying in my bed .... see how much I support Breast Cancer, I have 3 blankets with breast cancer on them, this is just one of them!

Here is another picture of me!

Here is a picture of my weird brother, Hunter!

I was fighting him to get a picture of him ... he didn't know (and still doesn't) I was posting it on the web!

He doesn't even know I have a journal, no one in my family does, just my friends!

Maybe after I post this picture entry I'll show him .... he he he ... then it'll be too late!


That is my beautiful baby Cookie! Is he not the cutest? I love my baby!

See that gray tag? Guess what it says!


I got him that one morning at Cracker Barrel (I think I spelled that wrong) country store!



This is the Princess Tiger ... the cat my dad found in his tow truck engine!

She is so cute and lovable!

Look at her posing!


And this is our cat Cuddles!

He loves to cuddle and get attention, he is the most lovable!


I'll take pictures of more people and pets and post them throughout the week!

Monday, December 26, 2005

My Ear Piercing!

My ears hurt a little bit from the piercing I got!

I had to take one out already because they are not even ... and I of all people can not have crooked holes because people are always look at my holes, and if they see they are uneven, then they are not going to want to get theirs done there!

So I took it out today and I am having Tammy do it this time!

I am surprised that Angela (our regional) of all people messed it up!

Tammy and I are thinking it was just because she was trying to get it done and over with so she could go home!

So I am disappointed because this will be the 3rd (yeah, 3rd) time I had to get it done now!

I might have to take out my 3rd holes too, and get XL post because my ears really swelled up this time and the earrings are starting to go through my hole!

Enough of my ranting and raving my about my ear piercing!


It was hectic in the mall today!

Everyone in the mall returning their gifts, exchanging, spending their gift cards, and getting their ears pierced!

So it was crazy!

One of the girls at work has been at my throat all season at work only though, if we go out outside of work (like for my birthday to drink) she is fine!

But the second we are at the store together, she is at my throat about everything!

I told Tammy I can't wait until she leaves to go back to Canada this year!

She works at our 2 stores every year (and has for like the past 7 years ... I think that's what it is ... it might be 6) and goes back to Canada after Christmas!

I hate to sound that way, but everyone at work sees how she is with me this year, and they are all saying, "And you are not even doing anything to her! She is just very moody this year and you seem to be her target!"

I kept telling myself today, "5 more days, 5 more days, 5 more days and she is gone for a while!"

I keep thinking I am soon going to snap on her, and I did a little on Christmas Eve!

So when she came in today she NEVER, in the 1 1/2 hour overlap, said anything to me!

But did say something about me to Tammy like I was not there or that I didn't know she was talking about me!

I told Lisa, "She acted like I didn't know she was talking about me ... I was standing right on the other side of Tammy (who she was talking to)! I know she knew that I knew it was me she was talking about! I don't know if I can hold in my anger 5 more days. I have been doing just that ALL SEASON! So don't be surprised if I snap really bad on her, cuz she's got it coming to her!"

I always say, "Treat Others How You Want To Be Treated!"

You must give to receive right?



Oh well!

I'll shut-up now!

I hope everyone had a good Christmas!

Sunday, December 25, 2005

Merry Christmas!


I hope everyone had (or has) a good Christmas!

I know I actually did this year!

My parents got me some good gifts!

I got a digital camera, DVD player, and stereo from my dad

I got a pooh throw, 2 butterfly necklaces, butterfly earrings, butterfly bracelet (which all match), 2 butterfly knick knacks, some clothing items, a set of butterfly sheets, and a pooh light from my mom!

Lisa got me loads of things .... a breast cancer 2-minute toothbrush, a breast cancer purse with a matching little purse (I love to support breast cancer I buy breast cancer stuff all the time), a "paradise" calendar, a set of 3 gold nose rings (from our store), a Winnie the pooh tin, Winnie the pooh lip gloss to put on my key chain, Cinnabon lip balms (I LOVE CINNABON ... I need to go to park city soon for one), a pink panther shirt (she won me a pink panther at the fair this year .... she is the BEST), 2 packs of "Bling Bling" ... it is rhinestones to put on your cell phone (you can out it on other things ... I use it for my cellie), a pair of socks with cats on them, and then her kids got me a butterfly address book!

Melissa got me a butterfly planner!

My regional Manager wrote me the most sentimental card ... I almost cried the first time reading it, but I had to fight it off because I knew at any second we weould get bomb-barded with customers, so I held them back then last night I re-read the card and cried! She also got me a dragonfly keychain from "Things Remembered" with my name engraved on it ... I like dragonflies ... nothing like butterlfies though .... and oddly enough is our Logo at work!

So it was a very good christmas for me ..... as I wish it was for everyone else!

I even won $160 worth of jewelry at work!

I even got to pick out what I wanted.... I got a necklace and earring set (That I've wanted since we got it in a couple months ago) 2 gold belly rings, a surgical steel belly ring (Even though I'm allergic to it ... it was sooooooooo cute, I will only be able to wear it for a couple days then change back to gold), and a pair of gold earrings!

I also paid to get my ears pierced .... I got my third holes re-done and the one I had gotten a few months ago .... it was 1/2 way up my ear, in the cartlidge ..... the one I posted pictures of a few months ago when i got it done .... well I had to let it close and I got it re-done last night!

My ears hurt so bad!

Have a great christmas all .......

Sorry about all the side notes today!

I'm a little silly!

Wednesday, December 21, 2005

Christmas Hours

I am sooooooooooo exhausted!

My body will NOT adjust to going to these CRAZY mall hours!

My body still goes to sleep late and I still have to get up early!

So now I have only been getting like 5-7 hours sleep, if that some nights!

I know I should be grateful for that though, because there are some people who get a lot less sleep than that, and don't have food, clothing, water, etc.

So I will stop the complaining and be grateful for what I do have!



I am so ready for this Christmas season to be over!

It has been really bad for every retailer in the mall!

We have so much time on our hands this year, that we talk to each other (normally everyone is so busy that it is one customer after another ... no chit chat time) and say how upset we are that we are having such a bad Christmas this year!


I'm not even done shopping!

I know how bad is that .....

I'm such a procrastinator ...  I know, I know!

I'm hoping that I can finishthe rest tomorrow after work!

God I hope so!


One of the girls at work turned in her 2 weeks ........ there really are micales!

I know that's mean ... but if you only knew the story and problems that has happened because of her!


I really have nothing else to report on!


Have a great christmas everyone (if I don't get a chance to come back before then)!

Sunday, December 18, 2005

Just a quick Hello!

My mood is really tired, exhausted, and surprised too!

I just wanted to drop a little hello and let everyone know that I am doing fine!

I have been busy with work and Christmas!

I am so exhausted!

I went out with Lisa and Laurie the other night and we ran into the lady that bought me a drink for my 21st birthday!

This lady (Edna is her name) didn't know me from a can of paint and when she heard it was my 21st birthday she bought me a $9.00 drink!

That was very generous of her!

I guess I never did stop by and let everyone how my birthday had gone!

Well when i got off of work Laurie decided that we would go to Ruby Tuesday's and get an apple martini!

So we did that then we stopped at a bar on the way to my house! (One of the most popular around here)

There they do this "buy one get one free" for your 21st birthday!

So I got a double shot of Hennessey and hypnotic!

Well that had me done!

So I went to McDonald's to get something to absorb the alcohol (BREAD) and go home and eat it and go to bed .... which I did not want to do because of all that fat laying in my stomach overnight then .... but it was either that or wake up with a terrible hangover and go to work with it!

I was fine when I went to work!

Well that was pretty much the extent of my b-day ... I got quite a few presents too ..... nothing from my family .... everything came from my friends at work ... they were the only ones!

How pathetic is my life?


Well nothing else really has been going on here other than working, sleeping, and eating!

I swear I have NO time for anything else!

Oh btw (by the way) my dad told me and mybrother to make a Christmas list of 3 things that we wanted!

He said that the total could not be over $100!

Which not to sound greedy or anything but I was kind of mad when he said that because he always "APPEARS" to have money all the time!

He even bought one of his co-worker's wife $100 worth of gold body jewelry at my store a couple of weeks ago and help pay for house repairs! (for no special occasion either)

But he tells me and my brother that we can only write down 3 things and it can not exceed $100 .... I was a little offended!

Well I told him there was only 1 thing I really wanted and he said, "what was that?"

"I want a digital camera"

"well there are some for under $100!"

"Yeah but I want one with a printer because your printer is always 'broken!' Then that way we will not have to worry about that. That's why I asked you black Friday if you would go buy that one at circuit city and I would have paid you back that night when i got home from work!"

"well write down what you want and we'll see. You already got a computer out of me, and that's supposed to be your Christmas gift!"


I was so happy when he said that .... I just hope he gets it!

I mean technically he could use it half as a birthday gift and half Christmas because he didn't get me anything for my birthday!

So we'll see what happens!

I was so surprised because my dad has not 'celebrated' Christmas in years!

He has always bought my brother stuff but not me!

I was shocked when he asked me to make a list as well!

Well I must go get more sleep!

I hope everyone's Christmas season is going well!

Thursday, December 8, 2005

How Do You....

Does anyone know how to add music to your journal, so that when you bring up the page it plays?

I am so lost when it comes to this kind of stuff!

Please help me! :)

Happy 21st Birthday To ME!

Happy 21st Birthday to me!


I made it ..... not that I really am too worried about being able to drink now!

But it is a huge milestone that everyone marks and waits for like it's their 13th, 16th, or 18th!

So here I am 21 and what do I get to do with it?

Be in a grumpy mood and have to go to work on my 21st birthday!

I know I said it was not a big deal, because I really do not want to go clubbin or partying or anything .... but the more I thought about it the past 2 days the more upset I am about it!

I mean I'm crying now because I can't even spend time with any of my friends today!

Because I close and they all worked the morning shift!

So I get to spend one of the biggest milestones in my life .... being at work!

Now don't get me wrong I love my job .... you should all know that by now ... but it's the point that I can't do ANYTHING on my 21st birthday!

I can't even go to Ruby Tuesday's after work and get ONE drink because no one can go with me and who wants to celebrate their birthday by themselves? I know I don't! Let alone have my very first OFFICIAL 21st drink!

I don't want to go to work because I asked in advance to work in the morning today so I COULD spend time with my friends .... my manager included!

All I wanted for my birthday was for my manager, Lisa and her 2 kids to go to dinner!


I was not asking for a car or loads of $$$$$$$$$ .... I just wanted to go to dinner!

And I was not ask for dinner with loads of people ... I just wanted 4 people there .... THAT'S IT!

And I can't even get that!

No one in this house has recognized me for my birthday!

Only one person has said happy birthday to me!

And it's one of my enemies! (okay friends that I do not talk to anymore ... that some of you know .... if you have been reading for awhile ...)

Yea ... Meggan texted me, "HAPPY BIRTHDAY!"

The only one to say happy birthday to me and we don't even talk (and that's a good thing that we don't talk)

How upsetting is that?

I know I may sound greedy to some people that have not been reading for long but those who know me or have been reading for awhile, know that I am a very giving person and love to make others happy before me!

Like I said that was all I wanted for my birthday was to spend time with my friends .... and I was hoping that maybe I was wrong about my family and that at LEAST for my birthday they could be nice .... but I seem to always be wrong about these things!

Does anyone see why I want to just DISAPPEAR and become a different person, change my name, my surroundings, my life in general?

I always feel like I have done a whole lot of bad at one point because I am constantly being punished!

Okay I just realized I am totally wrong about who said happy birthday to me!

I have 4 comments from my previous entry that have wished me a "happy early birthday!"

So okay, I am sorry, please forgive me, I over reacted!

The other thing that is upsetting me the more I think about the fact that I have to work is:

1. no matter who it was, or when it was, since I have been there EVERYONE has gotten off for they're birthday! It could be the day before Christmas (okay no one's b-day was then) and they got off! I was not asking to have off, I knew I would have to work ... I just had a feeling, that's why I didn't even try, besides the point of it being "BLACK OUT" period (which means NO request off ... no exceptions) ... but I couldn't even work the hours that I wanted! Not that I gave an exact schedule of what I wanted to work ... but opening ... which I could have worked up until 7 or 8 and I would have been happy!


I have to work until 10:30pm ..................... AND be back the next morning at 7:30!


So not only do I get to do NOTHING on my birthday but now I can't even sleep in the day after!


I really tried not to complain about this at all because I didn't want to get my manager stressed, because she is pregnant and already had tons of difficulties, but I can't get over the fact of how it all turned out!


*EDITED: I forgot to write that while I was typing this entry Chocolate (our dog) barked to go out and I went to let him out and my mom was sleeping on the couch (about 20 feet from where I am sitting) and she gets up to let him out, but I already had and was heading back to the computer .... my point is ..... She looked me dead in my eyes and didn't say ANYTHING to me ... she just saw that I let Chocolate out so she took her lazy ass (pardon my language there ... sorry) and went back to sleep! Like she doesn't sleep enough! THAT'S ALL SHE DOES ALL DAY! Why couldn't she just say "happy birthday!"? WHY?

Tuesday, December 6, 2005

Christmas spirit and 2 LONGGGGGGG days until my 21st!

First of all .... let me just say, "looky looky here ...  look at what AOL has added to the ads...."

Ads are not an endorsement by the blog author.


Did you see that (that has not been there the whole time has it?)

Or am I just blind?

I think that is mighty nice of AOL to add that!


Okay anyways, on to more important things .....

my 21st birthday is on Thursday ....

so where are my presents people?


You didn't get me one?


What's the matter with you?

J/k ..... halfway! :)

I don't want to make a HUGE deal out of it because I am not the partying type .... but I did want to be able to get one drink on my 21st ... but I can't!

I want an apple martini! That's it!

I don't want to go to the club or anything ... I could go to ruby Tuesday's and get it there and be satisfied!

But I have to work until 10:30pm the night of my birthday and be back at work at 7:30 the next morning ... so I can't do that!

I can't even do lunch because I can't go to work "intoxicated!"

So I am screwed both ways! :(

I got one present from one of my friends that work at the mall tonight ... she got me "moonlight path" body spray and body wash!


I decorated my store today with Christmas decorations ... Lisa and I went shopping for them before we went into work!

We got garland, ornaments, a door decoration (i got a little wreath/bell greeter to match our ornaments and garland) and a little decoration to sit in the middle of our island counter!

For my stores garland I got this red, white, and green garland .... beautiful, with red, blue, green, gold, and silver ornaments, then I got a pack of five ornaments that were red with silver glitter, and for our "centerpiece" I got a fake poinsettia that had gold glitter on the leaves of the poinsettia and had green glitter leaves! Our door decoration ... was a silver metal wreath with red and green acorns hanging from it! Our store looks so good ... I'll try and take pictures and see if I can get my dad's retarded scanner working so I can post some pictures!

Lisa's store got gold (and silver?) garland, green and red ornaments, a pack of 5 red with green glitter ornaments, a ribbon with a small bell for their door decoration and a basket of all these cute winterish plants ..... both stores look amazing!

Last year we did not decorateall! I know .... how scroogeish (is that even a word?)of us? Oh well ... we definitely made up for it this year!

Happy holidays everyone!

Sunday, December 4, 2005

Answer to comment

It does sound like you enjoy your job.
Where do you work ???
Comment from hadonfield78 - 12/4/05 1:55 AM


Piercing Pagoda

It is a jewelry store (okay kiosk) in the middle of the mall!

Saturday, December 3, 2005

A Better Day!

So today was a better day!

I feel really bad though that I have not been visiting anyone's journals!

I'm really sorry ... I was going to try tomorrow, the day that I was supposed to have off .... but as always ...... I have to work now!

Not that I mind ... I love working .... I love my job ...  I know how often to I say that! Oh well, if I do, I do!

So it looks like I won't be doing that!

I think I have off Wednesday, so I will try then!

Okay I just checked my agenda (okay my 2-year pocket calendar) and I can fit you in for wednesday!


Whenever I feel like it!

I will be sleeping in for sure!

Alright I must go to bed ... I just got home from work and I have to be back at 8:30 am ... YEAH!

Nite Nite All!

Friday, December 2, 2005


So the after affects from yesterday were definitely on today!

I was really in a grouchy mood and people noticed it!

I was not trying it on purpose, I just couldn't help it!

I tried to get out of my little rut ... but I couldn't!

I did for a little bit when I was at wal-mart shopping with Lisa!

I almost cried a few times at work today!

Just thinking of my family and what I come from hurts!

It hurts even more to know that it will NEVER change ... they will always be this way!

Knowing what I've gone through makes me feel weak and strong at the same time!

It makes me feel weak, becuase I think, "Sheesh, I've been through a lot .... when will it slow down?"

It makes me feel strong because I think, "Well if I can go through that then I can survive almost anything! There are things worse than this, but I know if I keep thinking positive, I will succeed to the fullest!"

But all of those thoughts never change the fact of how I HATE my family!

I know everytime I say "HATE" someone always says, "You should never say that world because that is a very strong word and ... " yada yada yada .....

But like I said before I HATEmy family!

I know and understand what that word means ... and I truly do feel this way ... there is no second guessing my feelings about it!

I just want to jump up, move out of state, leave no trace, change my last name, and start fresh!

But I know I can't do that because of my brother!

I could not imagine living my life without my brother!

I need him ... he is the ONLY family member that I love!


Thursday, December 1, 2005


side note: 7 days until my 21st birthday! :)

Okay, I have to tell ya, today has been an eventful day!

And NOT a good eventful day either!

The kind that makes me ashamed of my family and who I am!

When I start thinking that maybe I take them for granted and maybe I should try giving them a chance, they prove to me why I don't want to give them a chance!

Well it is my wonderful Lil Bro's birthday!

He turned 13 today!

I told my dad to have my brother wake me up before he left for school!

So Hunter comes up and lays on me and my bed and says, "I was told to come wake you up!"

I told him to get something out of one of my bags in my room and bring it to me!

He is half asleep!

He gets it and gets ready to me and I said, "Happy birthday!"

I got him a cute card and the XBOX game "50 cent Bulletproof"

He loved it!

Then I went back to sleep as he got ready for school!

Lisa calls me an hour later (it amazes me how I can be in a deep sleep and hear my cell phone in my purse, vibrating, not ringing but vibrating!)

It was my fault that she called!

I told her monday that I worked today .... forgetting that it was my one day off!

So she asked me if I was working and I said no!

Of course she kept apoligizing becuase she felt bad .... I told her not to worry about it, I was already woken up by my brother, cuz I told him to, plus I told her I worked today ... my fault!

Then I decided to "try out" my brother's new game .... just to see if I would like it .... heck I LOVE "Grand Theft Auto San Andreas!"

I like it ... but I am NOT good at the aiming part!

And that is the MAIN part of the game ... shootingpeople!

ABout 12/1:00 my brother is banging on the front door!

I knew he was suspended ... I knew it was nothing else!

he thinks this is funny (my mom teaches him that it is) and says, "Surprise!"

I immediatley said, "What did you get suspended for now?" 

As I saw the pink slip and a nurses slip in his hand with magazines!

"I'll let Dad tell you!"

"No you tell me"


I took the pink slip from him and the nurses slip!

He fought somebody ... threw their head up against the wall ... and as the teacher wrote on the slip .... "VERY VERY HARD!"

He went to the nurses office saying that his newly pierced ear hurt from the fight!

Well I told him how I felt about the situation!

"Fighting gets you no where in life, Hunter! Did you not to into a home because of fighting and stealing?"


"I know you want to do better with your life, but for some reason you are having a tough time doing so! Hunter, I know you can do better! I know this is NOT where you want to be! You already have been suspended at LEAST 5 times this school year! It is not funny at all! Please tell me you will try harder! I want to see you have a better future than some of our family members have made for themselves! Can you promise that?"

"Yes! But I don't deserve to go to the movies today, like you promised me for my brithday!"

"No I don't think you do and I am glad to see that you noticed that!"

Well I think my talks do get through to him ... but then my parents show him (mainly my mom) the wrong!

They praise him!

I heard my mom while I was in the showertlaking to my brother, she was reading the pink slip ... and what do you think she did?

Laughed ... she thought the whole thing was funny!

"Hunter, you slammed their head into the wall "VERY VERY HARD! Well I guess that's what they get!"

As she just kept praising him for what he did!


Well me and my brother spent hours palying the XBOX together!

My mom got her 2 checks and was off to cash them and BLOW her money on "useless" items!

She said Hunter could stay home with me since I didn't have to work!

Which I thought was REALLY weird because she HATES the fact that my brother and I get along so well!

She says, "I'm the mom, not Theresa! Hunter you are coming with me whether you like it or not!"

She NEVER lets hime stay with me!

Well she did today, I thought this was extremely weird!

So we spent more time together and even had our daily fight!

Usually if we spend a lot of time together he usually gets to rough and we get mad at each other!


Well my dad came home and asked where my mom was ... "We have NO idea!"

It was a little unusual that she was not home by 5!

And earlier my brother asked me what I would do if somehting happened to mom!

He said that I wouldn't care ... I told him just because mom and I don't get along does not mean that I would not be hurt if something happened to her!

Well my dad sits down to eat his dinner and my mom is trying to 2-way him!

They can't get through to each other! (STUPID NEXTELS)

Then my dad's phone rings!

He says, "Yea, when I'm done eating I'll come!"

A few other things are said!

He puts his food in the fridge (He didn'r even get to take one bite!)

He says, "I have to go get your mom!"

"Why?" I say!

"Well she has been arrested!"

"For what?"

"What do you think? I'll give you one guess!"


"YEP! You got it!"

So here is my brother being taught 2 different BAD things today!

My mom first tells him it is laright to fight people over words!

Then she teaches him that stealing is okay!

I am so ashamed of my family!

Everyday I think of much I wish my family could have been JUST a LITTLE more like me! More on the positive side of things ... and should I say good!

I don't mean to sound conceeded or anything .... but if any of you actually KNEW my family ... both sides ... ALL OF THEM ... you would wonder how I came out the way I did!

I came from a very NEGATIVE family!

Bad things happened to me daily ... mostly beaten!

I could've had a tongue peircing at the age 9!

My mom once threw me acrossed the kitchen and I hit my head on the stove and bit down on my tongue really hard! Well I had a HOLE in my tongue from it!

My mom had gotten VERY abusive towards me once she put my bilogical father in jail!

She never really took anyhting out on my sister or my brother ... she did a few times ... but I usually got the most of it!

I don't exactly know why! I listened 10 times better than both of them! I only got suspended from school ONCE in my WHOLE LIFE!

My brother and sister did at LEAST  8 times a school year!

I truly believe in the middle child gets treated the worst!

As I am the middle of 3!

I always HATED being the middle child!

As my mom would always introduce us as, "This is my oldest daughter, my youngest child and ONLY son, and there's my OTHER daughter ... she is the middle child!"

I feel like my mom is ashamed of me!

Why though?

I am the best of the 3!

Like I said I am NOT trying to be conceeded ... but if you only knew half the stories of my siblings you would understand!

Both of them were taken from my mom and her fiance!


I was the only one that got good grades, and did what I was told, and graduated high school, started college, and I never failed one grade!

My sister didn't do NONE of those, she was bad and failed at least 2 years!

I can't really say anything for my brother as he as not reached that time yet ... he is still young! But he has failed 2 years already too! And he follows a lot of the same footsteps as my sister!

I am so ashamed to be writin ghtis entry tonight!

I probably should not have even done so, but I needed to vent ... and give you a little look of my life growing up in this family is like for me!


I am so sorry for such a long boring entry tonight!

And I really hope that you will not judge me for what my family members do ... I really am so muc different from them!

Lisa and Tammy say to me all the time, "You are so lucky you turned out the way you did! It truly is a weird thing, but definitely a blessing! You are doing better for yourself then they ever did for themselves! It truly is scary that this is what you come from!"