Thursday, December 8, 2005

Happy 21st Birthday To ME!

Happy 21st Birthday to me!

YEAH!

I made it ..... not that I really am too worried about being able to drink now!

But it is a huge milestone that everyone marks and waits for like it's their 13th, 16th, or 18th!

So here I am 21 and what do I get to do with it?

Be in a grumpy mood and have to go to work on my 21st birthday!

I know I said it was not a big deal, because I really do not want to go clubbin or partying or anything .... but the more I thought about it the past 2 days the more upset I am about it!

I mean I'm crying now because I can't even spend time with any of my friends today!

Because I close and they all worked the morning shift!

So I get to spend one of the biggest milestones in my life .... being at work!

Now don't get me wrong I love my job .... you should all know that by now ... but it's the point that I can't do ANYTHING on my 21st birthday!

I can't even go to Ruby Tuesday's after work and get ONE drink because no one can go with me and who wants to celebrate their birthday by themselves? I know I don't! Let alone have my very first OFFICIAL 21st drink!

I don't want to go to work because I asked in advance to work in the morning today so I COULD spend time with my friends .... my manager included!

All I wanted for my birthday was for my manager, Lisa and her 2 kids to go to dinner!

THAT'S IT!

I was not asking for a car or loads of $$$$$$$$$ .... I just wanted to go to dinner!

And I was not ask for dinner with loads of people ... I just wanted 4 people there .... THAT'S IT!

And I can't even get that!

No one in this house has recognized me for my birthday!

Only one person has said happy birthday to me!

And it's one of my enemies! (okay friends that I do not talk to anymore ... that some of you know .... if you have been reading for awhile ...)

Yea ... Meggan texted me, "HAPPY BIRTHDAY!"

The only one to say happy birthday to me and we don't even talk (and that's a good thing that we don't talk)

How upsetting is that?

I know I may sound greedy to some people that have not been reading for long but those who know me or have been reading for awhile, know that I am a very giving person and love to make others happy before me!

Like I said that was all I wanted for my birthday was to spend time with my friends .... and I was hoping that maybe I was wrong about my family and that at LEAST for my birthday they could be nice .... but I seem to always be wrong about these things!

Does anyone see why I want to just DISAPPEAR and become a different person, change my name, my surroundings, my life in general?

I always feel like I have done a whole lot of bad at one point because I am constantly being punished!

Okay I just realized I am totally wrong about who said happy birthday to me!

I have 4 comments from my previous entry that have wished me a "happy early birthday!"

So okay, I am sorry, please forgive me, I over reacted!

The other thing that is upsetting me the more I think about the fact that I have to work is:

1. no matter who it was, or when it was, since I have been there EVERYONE has gotten off for they're birthday! It could be the day before Christmas (okay no one's b-day was then) and they got off! I was not asking to have off, I knew I would have to work ... I just had a feeling, that's why I didn't even try, besides the point of it being "BLACK OUT" period (which means NO request off ... no exceptions) ... but I couldn't even work the hours that I wanted! Not that I gave an exact schedule of what I wanted to work ... but opening ... which I could have worked up until 7 or 8 and I would have been happy!

But NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

I have to work until 10:30pm ..................... AND be back the next morning at 7:30!

WHAT THE HECK!

So not only do I get to do NOTHING on my birthday but now I can't even sleep in the day after!

I JUST DON'T GET IT! WHAT DID I DO TO DESERVE THIS?

I really tried not to complain about this at all because I didn't want to get my manager stressed, because she is pregnant and already had tons of difficulties, but I can't get over the fact of how it all turned out!

HAPPY 21st CRAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!

*EDITED: I forgot to write that while I was typing this entry Chocolate (our dog) barked to go out and I went to let him out and my mom was sleeping on the couch (about 20 feet from where I am sitting) and she gets up to let him out, but I already had and was heading back to the computer .... my point is ..... She looked me dead in my eyes and didn't say ANYTHING to me ... she just saw that I let Chocolate out so she took her lazy ass (pardon my language there ... sorry) and went back to sleep! Like she doesn't sleep enough! THAT'S ALL SHE DOES ALL DAY! Why couldn't she just say "happy birthday!"? WHY?

6 comments:

hadonfield78 said...

SWEETIE PIE, not to make lite of your feelings, cause they are real, and it does suck having to work on your 21st birthday.
And I am sorry that it hasnt been the most festive.
I do wish you a Happy Birthday though.
And I hope the rest of the day goes good.....................
Just remember one thing..........
It could be worse........
What if you were Jesus ??
He never gets his birthday off.............

swtdlphn24 said...

Happy 21st Birthday. I'm sorry to hear your not having a good one. Hope it gets better.

~ Tina

cdittric77 said...

Happy Birthday! I'm sorry about the situation with your mother. If it's any consolation my mother has already told me that I've ruined Christmas for her and the family!
With peace and love,
Charley
http://journals.aol.com/CDittric77/Courage

lici0uslatin22 said...

Sorry to hear your Birthday was like that..  wow.. sounds like my mother are we sisters and dont know..  Oh well I hope u have a Good year.. Take care Mari

bhbner2him said...

I'm very sorry your 21st birthday wasn't all that you had hoped or expected it to be!  I really can't imagine a mother, who shares the same house as you no less, forgetting or failing to mention your birthday.  You are right.  That does suck in anybody's book!  -  Barbara
http://journals.aol.com/bhbner2him/LifeFaithinCaneyhead/entries/1770

libragem007 said...

21!! yey!! Happy belated Birthday!
Gem :-)