Well the past few days I have been down in the dumps!
I've tried being a happier person, but I just can not!
I have been thinking ....
What do I have to show for in life?
I have a good job that I am good at, and I am a good person (or at least i would like to think I am) ....
But that's it!
I am 21 years old and don't have a single clue on what I want to do for the rest of my life ... I started taking college courses for child care and graduated from a high school where you could practice a trade ... I did child care .... so I have a few degrees in child care, but it does not pay at ALL!
I make almost twice as much now then I did working in a day care!
I don't have a car, or my license for that matter .... my mom is 47 and does not have hers, and NEVER did! My dad refuses to teach me!
And every friend that sayd they will teach me, they always back out and NEVER do!
I did have 3 friends in flordia that let me drive their cars a few times, but that's it!
So that depresses me like crazy!
Another thing that has been upsetting me is that I'm 21 and still live at home with my parents!
I just feel like I have nothing to show for in my life!
I feel like I'm a failure in this game called 'life'
I know all my friends are like, 'Theresa you should not feel this way because you are such a great person and you do have a good job that you are good at and a lot of people that have these things that yu don not do not have asgood of a heart as you do! You are such a good person inside!'
But I know they only say that to make me feel better because that's what they feel as if they need to do!
I just wish I could feel better about all this!
But I know I will notuntil I move out and get my license and a car!
I just hope that soon I can find someone who is SERIOUS about teaching me and helping me with my license!
*update: Please before commenting in this entry, read the entry that follows this one ..... it expalins a bit more about this situation fo rthose of you who are new here and don't know much about me!*